Unbearable Pain: My Struggle Against the Puzzling Pain of Cluster Headache Syndrome

It was a overcast Monday in the morning in the autumn of 2016. I worked as a educator, trying to settle a new group of students, when a sudden sensation erupted behind my one eye. Then came rapid jolts, like lightning bolts. As the school day came and went, the discomfort subsided and then returned with increased intensity. Four times that day I handed over a teaching assistant with worksheets and hurried to the school bathroom to soak my face with cool water. I took aspirin, but the agony remained unbearable.

The headaches appeared frequently that fall, and again in spring, soon establishing an yearly pattern. The autumn months were the most severe, then February and March. I could anticipate the pattern: aura in the shower, early pangs on the train, full-on pain in the classroom by mid-morning. In late 2019, a doctor eventually sent me to a neurologist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headaches.

This condition typically begin with severe discomfort around a single eye that persists up to several hours.

Approximately one in 1,000 individuals suffer by the condition, and males are more frequently affected. Attacks usually begin with abrupt, severe agony focused on one eye that peaks within minutes and lasts for up to three hours. Episodes occur in cycles, daily or several times a day, and are associated with tearing eyes, drooping eyelids or face perspiration. I have the episodic form, which occurs in seasonal bouts; others have continuous attacks, defined by the absence of long pain-free periods.

What connects sufferers is the severity. One research paper scored the sensation at 9.7 out of 10, more severe than bone fractures or other conditions. A separate discovered 64% of cluster headache patients reported suicidal thoughts during attacks; the number fell to 4% when they were not in pain.

Val Hobbs, in her seventies, a long-term patient from Pembrokeshire, finds this understandable. Her episodes began when she was two. “I would hurl myself on the floor and hit my head. That was put down to being spoiled,” she says. Her condition worsened through her youth. Drinking in her adolescence, like many causes, made things more intense. After drinking alcohol at her graduation party, she remembers hardly being able to see on the bus home.

Her relatives often mistook her episodes as intoxicated behavior. Support finally came from her father and then from her husband, Rod. “I was very fortunate to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs took clerical work after relocating, but often hid her illness. She was dismissed from one job, partly due to absences during attacks. Her definitive diagnosis came in the early 2000s at a national hospital.

Still, the failure to organize daily activities around erratic attacks took its toll. She especially hated being unable to plan outings, being seen as unreliable as a colleague, and even having to be cared for by her children during the paralysis caused by the worst episodes. “It robs you of the simple liberties we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She recalls obtaining tickets for a significant concert, only to have an attack inside a portable toilet.


Headaches have been described across the ages. “The first account of headache originates from the Mesopotamians in antiquity,” write authors in a publication on the subject. They linked the ailment to an malevolent entity who attacked his sufferers' heads.

Ancient healing texts suggest unusual remedies for what some observers would describe as a migraine. In the middle ages, migraine was identified as a distinct condition, with therapies including bloodletting to other, more superstitious cures.

It was a Dutch physician who provided the initial comprehensive description of a cluster headache. In his medical observations, he describes a patient “afflicted with a very severe headache occurring and vanishing daily at specific hours”.

The disorder were only formally classified by global medical committees in the late 1980s. From the mid-20th century to the 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a issue with a key artery that delivers blood to the head. Prominent experts in treating the disorder explain this.

In the late 1990s, researchers published the results of a research project for which they had triggered cluster headaches in patients and monitored the episodes in a imaging machine. The data, published in a major medical publication, showed activation of the a brain region, which is in charge for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in pain, and a deactivation when they recovered.

Despite such advances, diagnosis remains slow. One man's symptoms began in the 1980s and felt like “a balloon being inflated behind my one eye”. GPs thought he had a sinus issue; he had multiple operations before eventually being diagnosed in recently, after a doctor researched his complaints.

Neurologists say wait times in diagnosis and treatment happen because patients are seldom seen during an episode. “You're tired and depressed, but not in agony,” a doctor says. He works by ruling out other primary head pain disorders, such as tension-type headache, before diagnosing the disorder. A thorough patient history is crucial: on which side do symptoms appear? For how long? What season? Are there triggers, such as certain foods? Specific features such as tearing, drooping eyelids and stuffy nose help verify the diagnosis. Once identified, patients may be referred to specialist centers. But a lot of first go to A&E or are given inadequate treatments.

A charity trustee, 78, has suffered from the condition for the majority of her adult life, although she hasn't had an episode since 2016. When she was in her 20s, she had her molars extracted because dental professionals misinterpreted her symptoms. She believes the dental profession still need greater awareness. When a sufferer sought help from a support group, it was she who replied. I remember calling a support line during an attack in 2021; a reassuring volunteer talked me through oxygen treatment and medication until the episode eased.

National guidelines on treatment advise that patients are offered high-flow oxygen therapy and/or a specific drug delivered by injection. No oral painkillers or opioids should be used. Prophylactic options include a blood pressure medication, which apparently helps manage the attacks of well-known individuals.

But leading neurologists believe the guidance need revising to reflect a more defined clinical pathway and help GPs avoid misprescribing. For episodic patients, the treatment window is everything: “The length of the bout dictates the approach.” Short cycles with occasional episodes are managed with abortive treatment only. More prolonged or more severe bouts require preventives such as verapamil, sometimes combined with corticosteroids. A significant number of patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a cycle – an procedure into the area of the head where the pain is that reduces nerve activity.

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